I am deeply inconsistent. Even routine tasks, the actions we perform instinctually, are driven by opposing motivations. For example, choosing an act of generosity, like holding a door open for someone, is a performance of kindness. Regardless of affect, the subsequent gratification strokes an ego built on perceived “goodness” and impact. Thus, it is a display driven simultaneously by selfish and selfless intentions. A similar paradox even applies to our greater ideologies and rituals, especially surrounding mortality and change; both to be embraced yet prevented at all costs.
It is in this balance of dichotomy that I find humor and beauty. By recontextualizing gestures, my work highlights the absurdity of the unsaid tension behind our actions. How blurred our beliefs and intentions can be. And when the idea of principle brings us a sense of comfort and identity, what are the consequences of holding this contradiction?
By documenting these observations through sculpture, this embrace might be my own fleeting attempt to distract myself from addressing these fears. Ironic, isn’t it?
Brian Tom is based in San Francisco, CA. You can follow his work on Instagram @Plan_Brian or at Plan-Brian.com